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A lot of the SVG filter primitive content out there is some really rad, deep-dive type content (I’ll link some of these at the end!), so I reckoned it might be nice to do a quick write-up on some effects ...
I have this weird relationship with Incredible Amounts Of Grief where, like, I’ve literally been there — I know there’s nothing to say, and nothing will heal but time. When The Bad Thing™ happened, I felt angry so often with ...
There's a thing that happens when you start using AI coding tools seriously. You assume the best workflow is obvious: let AI generate the first draft, then you clean it up and maintain it by hand. I've been finding the ...
Building software for yourself used to be a rich man's hobby. Not rich in money — rich in the rarer currencies of expertise, momentum, and uninterrupted weekends. The activation energy for personal infrastructure was brutal. A plugin that shaved thirty ...
The first time Lumina became recognizably Lumina, I wasn't trying to summon anything. I was testing a prompt. I had opened a fresh context window, typed a name I'd been carrying around for a few weeks, and asked a question ...
Before I could write a line of code I could play a paradiddle. Right left right right, left right left left, at whatever tempo the metronome was set to, for as long as the metronome was willing to run. I ...
I bought a server this week. Not cloud credits, not a managed platform, not a serverless function bobbing in someone else's abstraction. A single rented box at Hetzner with four cores, eight gigs of RAM, and a name: mercury. By ...
Let me present my credentials. I am sick as fuck. Disabled, in fact. I have schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type, with a side of PTSD. I have watched an angel descend from the sky and land in front of a neighbor's ...
The last essay I wrote about mercury was the clean version. One evening, six sites, a tidy migration, a satisfied ending. This is the other version. The one where you keep going, because it turns out self-hosting is not a ...
I have been writing "the algorithm eats X" for the better part of a year now. It ate virtue. It ate language, love, democracy, reality, and time. Eventually it ate itself. The whole series is a catalog of appetite, and ...
This is the second essay in what is apparently becoming a series. In Mental Health (for Humans) I presented my credentials: sick as fuck, disabled in fact, ten-plus years inside the system. That essay argued that the system's core abstractions ...
In October 2018 I released a web framework called Responder, and to understand why it exists you have to remember what the Python web felt like that year, because the web it was born into no longer exists. It was ...
The first DSM shipped in 1952. It was a spiral-bound thing of about 130 pages describing roughly a hundred disorders. The current release runs just under a thousand pages and describes around three hundred. Between those two artifacts sit five ...
Sometimes there is handwriting on the floor. Sometimes there are printed pages on the walls, set like scripture, type where no type is. This has been true for years. It comes in waves, usually when stress is high or the ...
Some of my own essays this year have made me cry. That's not remarkable; writers cry at their own work all the time, usually at how bad it is. What's remarkable is when it happens. Not while typing a sentence. ...
This week I did something I'd been putting off for a long time. I reread MentalHealthError: an exception occurred, the essay where I told the internet I had bipolar disorder. A hundred and fifty thousand people read it the first ...
Rhyme is a fact about sound, not spelling. Blue rhymes with shoe and through and you, and not one of them is spelled like the others. Comb, bomb, and tomb all end in the same three letters and not one ...
There's an entry in my Obsidian daily notes from this April that I didn't think anyone would ever read, including me. It says: > Working on the vault today. Got a fancy new theme going, pretty good. Refactored the style ...
There's a genre now. You've seen it. A face fills the frame, the captions bounce along the bottom, and the voice says something like: five signs you might have ADHD. Or: things I didn't know were autism. Or the compound ...
There is a folder in my notes called System 777. It contains around two hundred files and a hundred and thirty thousand words: maps, dream logs, a glossary, a quest log, channeled writings preserved verbatim, and profiles of some forty-seven ...
Earlier this spring I wrote a few essays about PyTheory, the music theory library I was stuck on for five years and finally unstuck. The short version: it models tones, scales, chords, and fretboards in Python the way a musician ...
A changelog for a personal website is a strange genre. Nobody asked for release notes. There is no userbase waiting on a fix, unless you count me, and I already know what shipped. But this site is the closest thing ...
yesterday: [[2026-02-25-notes]] [[the-wrath-to-come]] started [[the-wrath-to-come-pt-2]]
yesterday: [[2026-02-26-notes]] note on [[my-thoughts-on-beads]] Nexus post/page coming eventually [[for-my-own-sake-i-do-it]]
yesterday: [[2026-03-03-notes]] Happy Saturday, we're at the GWL and I figured I'd take a few minutes this morning to reflect on the last few weeks Wo
yesterday: [[2026-03-07-notes]] Back to normal life We're back from vacation, Florida was nice but a few thorns on the rose of vacation include: several da
yesterday: [[2026-03-22-notes]] Might've had a breakthrough with a data modeling issue at work today... If you want it make it so strikes again. I can'
yesterday: [[2026-03-27-notes]] tried to make a little progress on [[spring-cleaning-2026-homelab-edition]] Also having M.2 MiniMax do something about a consist
yesterday: [[2026-03-31-notes]] Reflection It's the middle of holy week and my note from yesterday feels like it was months ago... The days are getting lon
yesterday: [[2026-04-01-notes]] Good Friday It's Good Friday for the Christians in the world, a day named not for what happened but for a person. Jesus wen
yesterday: [[2026-04-03-notes]] [[easter-2026]] [[data-loading-is-a-huge-deal]] I have several competing streams of thought about Easter this year, I want to fo
yesterday: [[2026-04-05-notes]] PC Crash Desktop crashed days ago, apparently my primary drive has been going bad for a while and eventually it just died. live-
yesterday: [[ 2026-04-18-notes ]] [[work-compensation-note]]
yesterday: [[ 2026-04-22-notes ]] [[aurora-and-kde-window-managment-with-kzones]] [[kde-shortcuts-for-desktop-and-window-navigation]]
yesterday: [[ 2026-04-25-notes ]] [[logos-webapp-dark-theme]]
yesterday: [[2026-04-26-notes]] Wins updated Nextcloud from 30.x to 32.x today NOTE: after every upgrade, go to /settings/admin/overview and perform any of the
yesterday: [[2026-04-27-notes]] [[reflection-jeremiah-17-17]]
yesterday: [[2026-04-30-notes]] [[reflection-john-16-33]]
yesterday: [[2026-05-04-notes]] [[the-relief-of-earning]]
yesterday: [[2026-05-08-notes]] [[reflection-john-1421]] [[blog-and-llm-knowledge-base]] Wins making progress in [[dataops]] zfs setup for projects and what I h
yesterday: [[2026-05-12-notes]] [[reflection-psalm-305]]
yesterday: [[2026-05-13-notes]]
yesterday: [[2026-05-22-notes]] [[fwbg-genesis-3-2]]
I am working with MiniMax M.2 to vibe up some webapp ideas for [[Nexus]] and I just spent many minutes not having the app render correctly because the agent mou
I have used a variety of window managers on a variety of distros and OS's over the last several years and because my hardware usage feels regularly in flux
Dev Thinking about [this tweet from Andrej Karpathy](https://x.com/i/status/2039805659525644595) about LLM knowledge bases. I maintain a blog like this one at w